hopes don't let us die

Once upon a time we had hopes about and expectations from someone!

But eventually we came to know that they are not as invested in us as we are . 

It hurts and hurts alot!

Heart bleeds as if someone has dug out the scab!

We come along the time and we accept that we cannot be someone's sepcial by emotional burden.

We learn  love is to let go.

If it is ours it will come back if not...

We learn to let go and be happy with our own self, expecting nothing from anyone. We train our mind . Hurt reduces..

But we have to confess that heart hurts to see that we are left all alone. Our heart has stopped seeking attention ! How it doesn't try to look in places even if there is hope!

It hurts to see that after walking together with each other, we still are not someone's sepcial! 

Still we are not top priority

Still we are in  "also" 

We question 

Why it's wrong to have expectations?

Why it's wrong to expect from our own people?

Why it's wrong to think something this ridiculous even after so many years...

And then we understand scab was just a baricade! Garrisoned chateaux!

Hurt is green , sprouting again and again

That's desperate.

That's longing

That's desert.

That's watering the dried plant!